100 facts about me.

1. I have grey eyes, but wish they were emerald green.

2. I'm really interested in how autistic and transgender peoples minds work. I don't mean that in a rude or horrible way, I'm just really interested.

3. I love Justin Bieber.

4. The thought of growing old and dying scares me.

5. I always tell my mum I hate her but have never once meant it and doubt I ever will, she's my only parent I have and does everything for me and I love her for it.

6. People say you shouldn't regret things, but unless I've learnt from it I WILL regret it.

7. I wish I was naturally dark haired with dark skin.

8. I love boys with pretty eyes.

9. I love River Phoenix so much, for everything. He was one of the only people who wanted to use his fame to make the world a better place. He was an amazing actor and had the amazing looks to go with it too. He honestly changed me as a person.

10. Because of River Phoenix I am a vegetarian.

11. I don't know my dad. I hate him, yet I kind of want to meet him.

12. I hate my shape and the way I look.

13. I like writing in diaries because I like to let my feelings out.

14. There isn't a single person that I can trust with EVERYTHING.

15. Everyone says their first kiss was horrible, mine was probably one of my best.

16. I hate people who judge others before getting to know them.

17. I can't act myself infront of people because I worry about what they will think.

18. Stand By Me and Dream A Little Dream are my favorite films.

19. I love rides!

20. I'm scared of heights and clowns.

21. When I'm singing in the shower I pretend I'm singing for or a crowd, or pretend the shower head is a camera and I'm recording my own music video.

22. I am one of the worst singers I know.

23. I hate people that chose their boyfriend/girlfriend before friends.

24. I want my nose pierced!

25. I want a tattoo of a butterfly on my wrist.

26. I want to name one of my children River. I think it is such a beautiful name.

27. When I was younger I wanted to be a bus driver.

28. I hate arguments.

29. I love adrenalin rushes.

30. If someone close to me cries, I cry. I hate seeing people upset.

31. My sister thinks I will end up in a mental hospital one day because I am so weird.

32. I want to meet Gerard Way.

33. I want to be an actress.

34. I can't use public toilets.

35. I hate my mum smoking.

36. I get confused easily.

37. I love writing stories and poems, I always get lost in them when I do.

38. When I go to sleep I try and force a dream into my head where I make myself a character from a film I've watched and I play out the film in their shoes.

I don't really know if that makes sense though.

39. I love making people happy.

40. I used to hate Glee, now I love it.

41. I think Lady GaGa is overrated.

42. Watching The Only Way Is Essex makes me embarrassed about being from Essex.

43. I want to know what taking drugs is like, but I will never try.

44. When I was younger I honestly believed I was going to marry Gordie Lachance from Stand By Me. I thought of his character as a real person and I didn't know he was now an adult.

45. I love the 2 Coreys.

46. I don't understand how people can be murderers, rapists, perverts, anything like that.

47. My granddad has alzheimers and lives in a care home. I miss him and want to see him, but I'm too scared to visit him because I know I'll have a breakdown.

48. I always put punctuation in the wrong places.

49. I want to do really well at school, college, and just life in general.

50. I don't just want a job, I want a career.

51. I love dogs.

52. I have half brothers and sisters who I don't know.

53. I'd do anything for my mum.

54. I want to meet Justin Bieber.

55. I love Taylor Swifts music! It's like she can read my mind.

56. I used to think I was psychic.

57. I really do believe that me and my sister have some kind of sister telepathy.

58. I hate it when people call others 'emo' based on the kind of music they listen to. Emo is somebody who is emotionally unstable, it's not something people do out of choice.

59. I cry at nearly every film I watch.

60. I wish I lived in the 80s, it seems like the best time.

61. I love marmite.

62. I cannot stand liars.

63. I think I am good at keeping secrets.

64. I hate my teeth.

65. I love grapes.

66. I haven't been eating crisps for 5 months because they're bad for your skin.

67. I think I'm really awkward in relationships.

68. I'm shy when I meet new people, but when I get used to them I am far from it.

69. I laughed at this number because I am immature.

70. I don't care how old Jaden Smith is, I love him.

71. I get too emotionally attached to characters in films and books.

72. When I'm older I want to move to New York.

73. I saw 30STM live for the first time on 30.11.10 and LOVED it.

74. I really wish I could find a cure to cancer :(

75. There's something about Corey Feldman that I love, I don't know what it is. Probably everything.

76. I love Leonardo Dicaprio and Johnny Depp.

77. I get really stressed out really easily.

78. I love the Lost Boys films.

79. I was two marks away from an A in my last english exam.

80. I want to be unique.

81. I like to sing to my family because it annoys them as I am a terrible singer! :P

82. I love dreaming. It's the main reason I love sleep so much.

83. I hate waking up in a good dream.

84. When I'm sad I don't eat.

85. I want a time machine!

86. I want pet seamonkeys, they are the coolest pets ever!

87. I love plain pasta.

89. I often get asked if I am on drugs just because I am so weird.

90. I cannot wait until my wedding day.

91. I've been excited for prom since year 3.

92. I hate it when people stare at me while I'm eating.

93. If people stare at my food before I eat it, it puts me off completely. 

94. I love money.

95. I can't wait until summer. I love having picnics in the summer.

96. I am probably one of the most clumsy people I know. I can't go a day without walking into something, headbutting something, tripping over, dropping something, or hitting myself in the face.

97. Whenever I eat I feel sick. I don't know why. I could eat really fast, really slow, eat loads or hardly eat anything and I still feel sick.

98. My hair falls out a lot :/

99. I think abortion is wrong! I hate it!

100. I can't wait until I'm older when I have a baby. I'm going to try and be the best mum ever!

I've given up with the 30 Day Challenge Of Happiness... for now :)

30 Day Challenge Of Happiness.

Day 13 - A Movie that makes you happy.

Dream A Little Dream.

This is honestly one of my favorite films ever.

I don't know why, but whenever I watch it, it just makes my mood 5x happier.

I love the characters in this film, the jokes, the clothes, the songs.

I guess one of the main reasons I love it is because it has two of my 

favorite actors in and it's in the 80s.

Bobby: Okay, uh my parents don't even talk to me.
Dinger: Yeah, well at least your mom didn't run over your leg in her Volvo, right? Mine did.
Bobby: Yeah, but see my mom doesn't go into spazticated seizures every once and again.
Dinger: That's rude mister. 

Dinger: Why's he being such a dweeb today?

Joel: I don't know man, but he's my dweeb.

Dinger: He's a very weird dweeb!

♥♥

30 Day Challenge Of Happiness.

Day 12 - A Description or Picture of someone who makes you happy.

My Mum.

She is probably the person that makes me the happiest ever.

I argue with her all the time, scream at her, tell her I hate her, but I never mean it.

I can throw her all the insults in the world and she will know I never mean it because she knows how much I love her.

If it wasn't for my mum I wouldn't even have a house.

She is a single parent, but she's all I need, the best parent I could ask for.

I love her for always putting on a brave face to stop me and my sisters getting upset, I hope to be like that one day, I want to be as brave as her.

She is so random, talks about the most random, stupid things. But she is hilarious.

Sometimes she just tells me random stories and makes me cry with laughter.

I love her so much ♥

30 Day Challenge Of Happiness.

Day 11 - A Story of something that made you happy this day.

Today has been a pretty boring day, not much has happened. It's been pretty sad too, a year since Corey Haim died today, Rest In Peace ♥♥

But, today my mums friend came over with her 6 week old baby. She's so cute!

I don't know why babies make me so happy, but it was definitely the highlight of my day.

Oopsie, I missed out yesterday day challenge too. I don't plan on doing todays either I don't think.
I'll carry on tomorrow.
I just though I'd post this because it always makes me laugh, and the challenge I've been doing has been about HAPPINESS :)

30 Day Challenge Of Happiness.

Day 10 - A YouTube Video that makes you happy.

Like I just said, I LOVE Jeydon Wales videos!

'ON THE BRIGHT SIDE THE CAT WITH HERPES, yes I said herpes, STILL LIKES ME!'

'FYI youtube peoples count as friends. FYI is For Your Information in Hungarian. FYI... I'm not really a pansy!!'

'My name isn't Austin.. WHAT THE F- Pickleeeeeees!! *sucks pickle* You were thinking dirty thoughts weren't you?... PERVERT!'

30 Day Challenge Of Happiness.

Day 9 - A Site that makes you happy.

Oh no! Missed out the day challenge thing yesterday, so I'm doing yesterdays one now, the doing todays straight after!

There are a lot of websites that make me happy.

Facebook, Twitter, Blogger, Tumblr, Youtube...

Ohhhh, clothe shops, cause I love online shopping.

There are too many and I could go on listing them forever.

I just love websites like Twitter, Blogger and Tumblr, it's my way of stalking people I don't really know but want to know. You can call me weird but you know you all do it ;)

I love Youtube too, I love finding interesting people then following them on twitter and stuff.

That's just how my life works.

A Youtube channel that makes me the happiest is Jeydon Wales.

He is one of the only people that can cheer me up when I'm really sad, and I don't even know him!

Even when my friends can't cheer me up, his videos can. 

LOVE ♥

30 Challenge Of Happiness.

Day 8 - Something you found when searching 'Happiness' on Google Images.

30 Day Challenge Of Happiness.

Day 7 - Something you found when searching 'Smile' on Google Images.

THIS IS SO CUTE!!!!!!!!

happy cat.

30 Day Challenge Of Happiness.

Day 6 - A Picture of someone famous smiling.

Jared Leto, I love you ♥

30 Day Challenge Of Happiness.

Day 5 - A Song or Song Lyrics that make you smile.

I cannot only pick one!!!!! 

I have posted this on here before, but it's just a song that never ever

 fails to put a smile on my face.

The lyrics, the tune, rhythm, the video... All of it ♥

LOL. This is also something that I just hear and it makes my day 100x better!

Just cause it's so... weird. When you actually sit and listen to the lyrics it's just funny.

I always imagine him dancing soon, so yeah, you can see the point :P

♥♥♥♥ 

30 Day Happiness Challenge.

Day 4 - A Picture you think will make someone else smile.

This isn't something to make people smile, but it will most probably make some people laugh.

You have to admit it, it's funny and SO true!

You gotta love Kiefer Sutherland and The Lost Boys! 

30 Day Challenge Of Happiness.

Day 3 - A Text that you saved because it made you smile

A text from my mum...

'In 2011 the UK Government will start shipping retards abroad 

so that the country looks tidy for the olympics.

 My eyes watered when I though of losing you. 

Love You. Be strong. Take your crayons :)'

I kept this because it made me laugh, my mum showing her love to me ;P ♥

30 Day Challenge Of Happiness.

Day 2 - A Quote that makes you smile.

'Friends come in and out of our lives like busboys in a restaurant.'

I love this quote because it's so true, friends really do just come in and out of our lives.

I also love the film it is from, Stand By Me, A LOT.

30 Day Challenge Of Happiness.

Day 1 - A Picture of you smiling.

      This is one of the only pictures of me where I am actually smiling, I think... 

I find that quite shocking.

I'm not a miserable person, I'm just not photogenic and can't really smile for a camera.

Usually when I try smiling when someone takes a picture I end up laughing and look like a psycho in the photo.

PHOEBE, PSYCHO PHOEBE.

Sorry, random thought to myself there.

But I am usually actually a really happy person :)

Today I watched Lucas, it made me realize so much!

At school there is ALWAYS the weird kids. You can't think I'm mean for saying it because everyone knows it's true.

Maybe it's not always that they're weird, they're just different so everyone just judges them.

Everybody deserves a chance and you shouldn't just judge somebody because they are different to you.

This film made me cry so much, I felt so sorry for Lucas. It was horrible.

Everyone sees kids like this at school, getting bullied and stuff, yet they don't do anything about it.

I've always seen it but never joined in, but never really done much to stop it, apart from a few times. You never know, something bad could happen to these people like it did to Lucas when he ended up in hospital.

I wish I had a friend like Lucas. He might be different, but he is so nice and cared so much about Maggie. 

I guess people need to learn not to judge people before getting to know them.

You can't judge somebody when you don't know them or what their life is like.

You might think you know somebody, but you don't, because a lot of people pretend to be somebody they're not just to fit in.

Maggie: Where are you going?
Lucas: To the dance.
Maggie: By yourself?
Lucas: Hey, I'm a party animal.

I think everybody should see this film to really understand...

♥♥

When the night has come, and the land is dark

And the moon is the only light we will see

No, I won't be afraid, oh, I won't be afraid

Just as long as you stand, stand by me

So darlin', darlin' stand by me

Oh stand by me

Oh stand, stand by me, stand by me.

'I'm not the kind of person who tries to be cool or trendy, I'm definitely an individual.'

 - Leonardo Dicaprio.♥

Recently I have learnt that you should always be yourself. I used to act like I'm somebody I'm not because I get worried about what people think. I'm slowly becoming myself around my friends and it's so much better than hiding.

I love River Phoenix and Corey Haim, I still can't believe that they died. From when I was young they were both always my favorite actors. I don't care about hiding it, they have both kind of made me who I am. Because of them they've helped me believe I can achieve my dreams, I also want to be an actress. River Phoenix made me realize that killing animals to eat them is wrong and I am now a vegetarian and I love it.

I want to be myself around everyone. I act confident when really, I'm kind of shy. I fake a smile when I want to cry. I obsess over things easily, I get too into movies and books and end up feeling like I know the characters. I hate finishing really good books I've been reading, it sounds stupid but it always feels like I've lost a friend or something...

I'm not an open person with my friends, you'd think I would be because they're my friends. I'm just not. I can't really tell people anything because I've been let down so much, I don't know who to trust.

When I'm upset I cheer myself up by watching either Stand By Me or Dream A Little Dream. My two favorite films ♥

I get jealous easily, the smallest things annoy me and I always say things/do before I've thought it through. I'm far from perfect, but I guess I am okay with it.. because that's just me.

♥

12 Day Celebrity Guy Challenge.

Day 12 - Which celebrity would you like to meet? 

Celebrities who have passed away or celebrities who are still alive? There's actually quite a lot of celebrities I want to meet.

I wish I could have met River Phoenix and Corey Haim before they passed away. They were both such amazing actors with great personalities. Something about them both seemed so different to every other celebrity. I really hope someday there will be some kind of time traveler, I would definitely want to go back in time and meet them both and try and help stop them dying ♥ 

This is also one of the only younger pictures I've seen of Corey where he has his mouth closed :P

I would also love to meet Justin Bieber and Leonardo Dicaprio. Leonardo Dicaprio is my favourite actor that is still alive, and I just love what he does. Justin Bieber is my all time favourite singer, I love his voice and his personality. It would just be amazing to meet them both. ♥

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